by Katharine Hartnett
Jesus, the True, Pure, Merciful, Gracious, Holy, Lover of my Soul.
I have had a lot of different loves in this life including people, relationships, things, clothes, music, movies, hobbies, you name it. But deep down I always was searching for something more, for that true, pure, gracious love that only Jesus can give. No one and nothing else seemed to satisfy me, not ever! But I still am passionate about what God has blessed me with! God is so amazing in how he works things and brings us closer to him, and when God disciplines us through sanctification that’s real love, for he shows that he cares for us.
Before I really came to know the Lord I was seeking a fulfilling life through people and friends, wanting to fit in with the crowd and look cool, going out to parties, clubbing and drinking etc. Although I knew there was a God and kinda knew what I was doing wasn’t really good I still thought I could just let it slide and not worry about it yet (what people call procrastinating) and I wanted to do this because everyone else was, I thought it was the way to enjoy life since everyone is doing it! I also used to be an obsessive shopper and would waste my money buying lots of dresses from the clothing store Ally every weekend, but once I would get them, they felt like nothing. I still wasn’t satisfied and had to go buy more.