The Lord calls his followers to be faithful unto death, to we die in His service, proclaiming and defending the gospel. How can we if we are so weak? But our God is faithful and He does it through us. All the glory to God!
I often get up in front of large audiences to speak on Creation/evolution issues, or on biblical creation and the origin of the universe, or on faults with atheistic or even theistic big bang thinking. I have been doing that in one form or another for 40 years now. But nearly every time before I get up to speak I am attacked by some spiritual forces trying to stop me doing it. Sometime this comes through my bodily weaknesses, and I feel sick, nauseated and sometimes even have had attacks like feeling feverish.